Sinful Soul

A sinful soul.

I am.

Looking back time I owe huge to The Creator. For the time I wasted. For the money I spent unnecessarily. For the wrongdoing I create despite the blessing I get every single day. Thinking back, I am ashamed of myself. Those history made me me.

Those mistakes made me learn to become humble. I learn what decision to make on what event. What people to trust. What place to go. What people I need to prioritize. What kind of company to work with.

I had a conversation with my bff regarding the hardship I face.

She said "Allah bagi kita ujian samada untuk tingkatkan iman sebab kita muhasabah diri kita balik
or
memang sebab kifarah atas dosa kita yang pernah kita buat. 
Apa-papun yang jadi, ujian yang kita hadapi, kita balik pada pencipta kita".

That is the fact. The latter I must admit.

 It always hit me when I was soo aggressive about future, how much money I want, how things will work out, how my work will be successful, how small business can turn big

then

dangggg

somebody pass away
my dad got sick and hospitalised
somebady is sooo sick in instagram

duhhh

What am I chasing in life anyway. Balance is the best. I will try.